I CANNOT GET ENOUGH OF THIS SONG. It's from Glee, and it's a Supremes cover, which stays true to the original, in my opinion. So, those of you who love Motown (Alix) or Glee, enjoy.

Happy Turkey Day! I got the idea to post this after I got a "Happy Turkey Lurkey Day" text. It's from "Camp," which is an awful movie about kids at theatre camp but I love it. If you knew me senior year, you know I was a little obsessed. It's all good.

And I can't stop listening to "Dorchester Hotel" by the Sounds. Check it out, ch'all.

I literally just sent my friend Mitch, a UT blogger, this idea, but before he (possibly) does it, I'm going to do it my way.

BEST GAY ROLE MODELS
I heard that there were none...until I started thinking. They need to actually be gay. (I also got some ideas from Out Magazine's 50 Most Powerful Gays)

1. Anderson Cooper

2. Ellen DeGeneres

3. Jodie Foster

4. Ian McKellan

5. Suze Orman

6. Harvey Milk (DUH)

7. Adam Moss (NY Magazine)

8. Wanda Sykes

9. Lorri L. Jean

10. Augusten Burroughs

11. Irshad Manji

12. Mitchell Gold

13. Tim Gill

14. Barney Frank

15. Jann Wenner


I tried to mix it up by occupation in order to show that you can be a successful homosexual outside of entertainment and journalism. Not sure that came across that strongly, but I tried! If you have any suggestions (all are welcome) please leave a comment!

Alright. I'm going to just sit and complain for a bit:

Biology exam Wednesday
100 + pages of Greek reading
Memorize case for mock trial acting (today at 7)
Finish composition by tonight
Finish Macbeth and start paper (due Friday)
Read bukus of handouts for paper
Find option monologues for theatre final and read the play I found and rent the movie
Take bio quiz by 5pm tomorrow
Threatre meetings Wed. and Thurs.
Go to RUF
Go to church (for once)
Read my Bible and be a good Christian etc.
Work ~20 hours this week
Manage to not go crazy.
Sleep at some point.
This is what every week is like. Life sucks, y'all.

 I'm pulling an all-nighter for maybe the sixth or seventh time this semester. I need someone to read my character analysis and tell me it's not total crap.

This not-sleeping thing isn't the best idea tonight because my day tomorrow is as follows:
Class 9:40-10:55
Work 11:30-3
Class (Lab) 3:35-5:30 
(leave at 5 to go to...)
Court 5:30-6:30?
Little Shop performance 6:30?-9:30

Then maybe I'll sleep. This day might suck. Just a little. Here's what I bought for my character analysis (it's a four-year-old girl)
Cinderella 24-piece tea set
Ballerina Barbie
Green and blue toule tutu with cherries on it
big pink gift bag to put it all in

Yeah, I spent like forty bucks. I want an A. I'm going to burn a CD too. I'm dying for an A here. 

Think I may take a break to chillax before I finish this thing. Hmm....

Hope everyone else's semesters don't suck this hard! LOL. 

"Whoa uh oh whoa uh oh

I've been thinking about you 
And what you've been up to."

Sorry we're not friends anymore. 
I wonder how're you're doing...
And how things would be now if we were.
I hope I wouldn't be the same to you.
This isn't high school.

And this is ridiculous.

Oh, I've been dying to say this to you and I don't know what else to do.
I've seen your fucking attutide.
I've been doing someone that you know.
It's not a secret to me anymore.
And I've seen you blowing around my face.
With empty words our worlds collide.
It was my ego saying why.
I never thought I'd say this to you.
I lied about you.
Regrets are useless.
Was it my ego saying why?

 I hate school
I hate school
I hate school
I feel like I'm against a wall
And I hate this
And I want to leave
I want a vacation 
And I want things to be better
And I want my GPA back.
This was supposed to be the best semester ever and it's the worst.
What. Happened. 

 Got this message on Facebook IM today:

"Hey dude, i'm sorry, but i'm deleting you number... Not trying to sound mean or rude, but i never hear from ya and when we do talk it's cut very short and i cant stand that ."

And I don't care. I don't really enjoy talking to you that much and you don't have a lot to offer me. Sorry, that's how it is. Hope you get your life together because mine will move on very easily without you. That's just my brutal honesty. 

I've started keeping a little handwritten journal that I got at B&N for like $5. I think that'll really help me out when I get a surge of emotion I need to express at any given moment. Speaking of which I plan on writing David Morelli a letter saying everything I need to say. Time for this to actually die. Lindsey suggested it...and I think she's right. (I need to learn how to tag people on here...It's so easy on Twitter...)

All in all I'm trying to increase the status of my mental health. I think it's going well. English test, bio test, and Spanish quiz tomorrow, along with work and a paper all weekend, followed by journals and I think a mythology exam. Say a prayer, y'all. However, despite it all, I'm feeling good. 

I need you. I miss you. 

There are no words. This is perfection.

 I see all of these amazing people around me that are everything I'm not and I can't help but wonder what I'll become one day. There are so many things I want to be, and yet I lack the motivation to become anything. I wonder what I will end up like. 

 I think I'm over it. I mean, I'm probably jinxing the crap out of myself by doing this, but:

David Morelli,

I hearby bury you six feet under the ground and wish you a lasting, undisturbed rest in the grave.

Something has changed within me...something is not the same.

 I should be studying but....

1. I want to give blood. I need someone to go with me so I don't freak out like last time and they cut me off early.

2. I need to eat....I just ate...why am I hungry? It's cause I'm in Rocky Top.

3. This is random as balls.

4. Passed David Morelli and didn't care. Score 1 for the boys back home.

5. LOOOOOOOOONG in-depth talks with Brooks and Seth. Starting to realize and figure some things out about myself. I needs a'fixin, y'all.

#5 was the point of this update...so there! 

Okay, I decided that I want to go back into therapy. I think everybody just needs a little help sometimes. Nothing wrong with that, right? I'm just not the person I want to be and I want help with that. It's worth a try!

And don't ever call me feminine. I know that I'm stupid Jack from Will & Grace, I get it, but don't throw it in my face. It's just not what I want to hear. Maybe I need to hear it sometimes, though? I don't even know. I'm insane.

My bleached hair makes me look pasty. This must be fixed. I'll solve it by going to the gym! I've been nagging myself to do it for days...the thing is, I don't have an iPod or anything so it would just be me with the sounds of everyone around me whilst I run on the treadmill or something.

And I think I'm still sick. Cough won't go away and there are more spots on my tonsils. On a lighter note, piercing is healing! Whoopee. BTW, told Dad about the hair and piercing, and he was cool about it. I really didn't think he would be. I guess I don't even know who my parents are.

I need to shower. Just came back from Tyler's dance party thingy. I'm gross.

 

OH! Before I forget, I'm on deck crew for Little Shop of Horrors at the CBT. Professional production y'all. I'm excited! It's going to be amazing, esp. since my mate Liz will be there.

Okay, one more thing. I'll be in Nashville on the 26th for Gabe's 50th birthday thing and the next day I'm going to see the Sounds in Asheville (I CAN'T WAIT I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO THEM). So, if you want to hang out sometime in that 24-hour period that I'll be there, hit me up because chances are I want to see you.

Men make everything more complicated. I kind of hate them.

I've got to stop trying so hard and let things come to me. I'm usually that way...what's up? It's not going to happen anyways.

I'm going to try and make this really short and informative, kind of like SparkNotes or Cliff Notes, or what have you.

1. Got my rook done. Cost me fifty dollars, it's a little sore today, but it's not that bad. Not being able to sleep on that ear, though, cost me some sleep.

2. Classes are fine. I really want to make an A in Spanish 323, which is advanced grammar. But it's nice to know that my knowledge of Spanish isn't completely...what's the word...well, it's coming in handy and more or less I know my stuff.

3. Finished working on a play called Fat Pig like a week ago and it's nice to have my life back.

4. Only to have it taken away by swine flu. I'm feeling almost 100% today, which is great. Went to all 4 classes and everything. I would like to avoid

OKAY NOW THIS IS CURRENT. THE ABOVE IS FROM WEDNESDAY.

5. And I've discovered that David Morelli, both as a subject and as a person, makes me spit acid. I'm trying to not be bitter b/c that's not my style and I'm really big into forgiveness, but I can't help it.

6. My rook was really nasty today. Just fyi. I guess the healing has begun.

7. And I'm more in love with Sailor Moon than ever.

Question: What message would you want people to see in a fortune cookie?

Answer: "You are not alone. Ever."